i feel jaded to be honest…
i feel childish at the same time.

lately, i am in full hermit mode. keeping to myself as much as possible, so i’m not under a arrow flying brigade of criticism. i don’t know why i seem to be this way; i can pin-point it on the fact that i feel pushed out of my friends lunar orbit.
it seems like two sided transformation.

one side; seems to be actually pushing to have my company, my respect, and my view.
other side; wrapped up in quick fixes and seeing there nights end at the sight of the bottles last drop.

I FEEL SO OLD, I HATE BEING THE ODD MAN OUT WHEN IT COMES TO LIVING LIFE.

my shoulders can hold up to a lot of mental anguish.
i’m not scared, just heavily curious.