on a day like this, in which the world all takes a selective amount of time to sit down and think of all they are happy about it, i figured i would do the same; just more in depth then what a normal man would ponder on.

as of late, i really am seeing the worst side of growing up, mainly involving the fear. the animosity of being in control is scaring off a lot of the values i even once considered treasures. for all my friends that can see past the benefits that may attach to my friendship, for all the friends that can look past my flaws and my negative context towards everyday life, for all my friends that see beauty in me whether i’m fucked up on drugs or just there to criticize; you know i’m there only for support. you all have done a great deal for me. numerous times in these few years i have felt displaced of a home and most importantly love; in all respect, thank you for the respect. this world is cruel, and i doubt anyone can say that like i can. but luckily, i have what i have and that will keep me still searching for my advancements.

the last thing i am going to talk about when it comes to being thankful, is this boy that popped into my life named jakeob. it’s hard to muster a feeling that is not beaten to death by every other dreary teenager; because we all feel a sense of the same thing, just some less imaginative then others. in a nutshell, i am just grateful for him. i never seem to be this happy, not since matthew. in the beginning of this year i felt like i had to re-gain control of myself to not let my anxious personality and overflowing insecurities show weakness; my mother always told me to be strong for no one else can hold you up that high. the comfortability, the warmth of communication, and the relation to hopes make me the most optimistic i’ve been in so long. i sell myself short and settle for what is not good for me; but he is there to show me what i am worth along with him in my life has made me do the same for myself.
i’m glad the past never affected us.
i’m glad the future has potential to have you in it.
i’m glad that i still hold tight in others hearts.

GOOD DAY, EVERYONE.