animal wish list!

- beluga whale
- chinese pug
- brazilian free-tailed bat
- atlantic long-armed octopus
- northern saw whet owl
- fainting goat
- cape clawless otter

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i feel jaded to be honest…
i feel childish at the same time.

lately, i am in full hermit mode. keeping to myself as much as possible, so i’m not under a arrow flying brigade of criticism. i don’t know why i seem to be this way; i can pin-point it on the fact that i feel pushed out of my friends lunar orbit.
it seems like two sided transformation.

one side; seems to be actually pushing to have my company, my respect, and my view.
other side; wrapped up in quick fixes and seeing there nights end at the sight of the bottles last drop.

I FEEL SO OLD, I HATE BEING THE ODD MAN OUT WHEN IT COMES TO LIVING LIFE.

my shoulders can hold up to a lot of mental anguish.
i’m not scared, just heavily curious.

groove, slam, work it back.
filter that, baby bump that track.

groove, slam, work it back.
space cowboy, just play that track.

right now would be a good time, to show me that i am worth the trouble.

but alas, i can’t flip this coin and make myself believe you do love me.
can you?

yes plz!
she’s one of my, “am i really gay?” moments.

i cannot pull myself to be creative or some any sign of creativity through the internet; especially when i log onto a website devoted to it.
creativity comes natural to me.
so, i apologize for reading my posts and getting nothing but shallow views and attempts at a man still trying to grip his childhood, in fear that he will one day succumb to the modern mans enterprise.

but if you do enjoy, god bless you.
no really, god bless.

“And I’d sing the harmony, in an attempt to agree, But I have an awful voice to match the awful life I lead.”

the latest quote that sums up how i feel at the moment.

i rarely use this site anymore because of how busy my life has become; not meaning hectic, but even my mind has pushed down on the pedal.

i’ve never felt more mortal then i have as of late.
but, it’s nice to feel a mindset other then a brick wall, which is what i am usually classified as.

nonetheless, this year has started with a fire under my feet.